my_pledge

wow.

2007-03-31T06:56:20Z

I don't even know what to think anymore

my_pledge @ 2007-03-25T17:23:00

2007-03-26T00:26:30Z

You make me happy. Only you make me happy. There is no other combination with me. Im over one hundred percent sure of that. No one could ever replace you. You were absolutely amazing. you lit up my world like no one else will ever do. I have never hated myself so much as i do now. AND ITS NOT BECAUSE OF YOU! It is all because of me. Im the one who fucked up happiness for myself for life. How will i live the rest of my life unhappy? I love you so much. Im begging you....

I suck helllla

2007-03-25T09:47:44Z

I fucked up beyond belief. I will never forgive myself for what i did. But pleaseeee. I need you so bad. god dammit... I was fucking twisted in the head, and i was an idiot and i fucked up incredibly hard. I hate myself. Please. let me into your life again.

I miss you so damn much. I love you even more though

my_pledge @ 2007-03-24T14:07:00

2007-03-24T21:10:33Z

Each passing day gets harder. seriuosly... please come back.

space

2007-03-24T01:06:41Z

This is going to be so hard on me, but i will do this for you. Please NEVER FORGET during your time away that i am always going to love you. I am always only going to love you. I want to be the one that buys you the ring. I WANT TO BE YOURS FOREVER. god dammit i cant even tell you how fucking sorry i am for everything. I will always be here though... waiting for you. Please dont give up on me.

Today

2007-03-23T18:14:47Z

Today is so much fucing worse than yesterday. I NEED YOU SO FUCKING BAD!!! The fact that you cant even see me drive a plank through my stomach... You are constantly on my mind. All i can ever think about is you. Did i just mess up my entire future? Is it completely gone? Please dont say it is so. PLEASE.

my_pledge @ 2007-03-22T03:22:00

2007-03-22T10:27:30Z

i want this more than anything. But what you need is your happiness. and all i have to look forward to is a lonely life. because i am such a shitty person.

my_pledge @ 2007-03-22T03:22:00

2007-03-22T10:22:47Z

rollercoasters fucking suck!

hmmm

2007-03-20T06:44:20Z

I'm sorry. I'm not perfect. You don't deserve to have to deal with this, but I am eternally grateful that you are... you are the light that shines in my eye. You make this heart beat to the tightest fucking timing... like the perfect drum beat.

I

2007-03-13T04:22:04Z

have got a runny nose, a sore throat, a head ache, and im dead beat tired and i just cant take anymore of the world today.

doug, then bed.

I

2007-03-12T08:07:23Z

fucking hate ghosts

life

2007-03-08T03:15:52Z

Recently has just taken a wierd turn on me. Nothing seems right. Nothing I do seems to be right. Just seems.... out of place.

No time

2007-03-06T05:31:04Z

to even sit down and be with my love for an hour of the day. Why is this so fucking lame. school is so shitty. work ontop of that is so shitty.

my_pledge @ 2007-03-03T09:13:00

2007-03-03T17:14:26Z

god i love her. Holding her in my arms makes me the happiest person. its a felling the no one ever could and has ever given me.

my_pledge @ 2007-03-02T00:14:00

2007-03-02T08:15:21Z

seriously fucking why?

my_pledge @ 2007-02-27T19:59:00

2007-02-28T04:01:14Z

umaginable. not possible

my_pledge @ 2007-02-27T02:18:00

2007-02-27T10:20:49Z

am i dreaming? this cant be

saturday

2007-02-25T00:29:10Z

I'm in the back of my work on my lunch break. I'm watching the ring. Ring 1 was so much better than the ring 2. I'm waiting for manda to get here so we can do something. Today has been ultra lame so far.

my_pledge @ 2007-02-16T22:03:00

2007-02-17T06:04:16Z

I would do anything to kick that kids teeth in. He has no idea what will come to him down the road.

my_pledge @ 2007-02-09T12:16:00

2007-02-09T20:16:40Z

im fucking dumb

my_pledge @ 2007-02-04T02:40:00

2007-02-04T10:46:44Z

i found tonight that i dont serve a purpose. Im so fucking scared. I wont be able to sleep at all tonight cause of this. Its because of her why hes hurt. And she said shit that killed me inside. fuck her. she is nothing. If she only saw how much damage she did.

my_pledge @ 2007-02-03T12:54:00

2007-02-03T20:55:34Z

what a bad morning. what am i going to do for the rest of the day?

my_pledge @ 2007-01-22T11:25:00

2007-01-22T19:25:54Z

rancid

=)

my_pledge @ 2007-01-21T01:29:00

2007-01-21T09:49:38Z

Ok. Tour is over. Im glad/ bummed. I met some real awsome people. It was the wierdest thing having met these people for the first time in my life and feeling like we have known each oehr for years. awsome dudes. Im sad to see them go. Tour has been fun. My drum set is pretty much fucked... ad i dont even care. The head is ripped, and there are dings/ scrathes all over. I knew it would happen so im not worried at all. Playing was alot of fun. The northwest was a totall bummout. 3 shows being cancelled last minute really pisses me off. Bremerton was pretty cool, even though i broke two sticks and dropped one because of it. We sold bout 140 worth of merch and made about 100 at the door. The local band took 3 times that from the door and that is really messed up. The dudes in fireworks almost fought them it was funny. I miss manda so much. I really am going to be glad to see her tomorrow. I love her. Night everyone.

VERSE NEXT MONTH in sac. Fuck yea

manda

2007-01-11T07:15:31Z

i spent the whole ride in the van today recalling important highlights of our relationship. there are so many that have stuck with me. everything is amazing with her. im so stoked she is in my life. she makes my heart so happy. She deserves the absolutely best in life. im fucking so in love with her. Im so sure of this. She is for me. fuck............ i spend so much time thinking about her.